My thought started from the day I visited a hospital where my friend got admitted for some illness. As soon as I came out of the hospital, cough started and then slight headache followed. At that time, I thought it was what is popularly called as hospital infection. But why only cough and why it stopped and changed into headache?
I think that is not because I am not immune to the infections. Nursing home with like lot of sadness, thoughts of illness, fear, despair, and pain gathers a negative energy around the hospital and once we enter, we pick that by weak part of the body which is negative energy trying to come out through some means of the body which pains. We can compare this to that we pack sadness when we see an ambulance rushing past us. With a crowd in burial ground, similarly we pick fear when the crowd around us in fear, we become arrogant when the crowd around is arrogant etc. similarly we pick negative energy later to be displayed as physical pain.
Sri Karmayogi says pain is the sensation of the mind unsuccessfully trying to do the work of the physical. A small energy doing the work meant for great energy feels the attendant sensation as pain. In all above situation I think I am poking more than what I am entitled for. This can be connected to many of our life situations where biting more than what we can chew and spreading legs more than we can bring stress and pain which is caused by some sort of failure and its negative energy.
I think as a mass, the atmosphere carries a pain of failure which develops energy of stress in atmosphere. For example, though you are coolly driving, a traffic jam immediately brings the tension. Because it is picked by us from the atmosphere. If anyone pumps the horn in the first line even driver of a car which is one kilometre behind in the jam will pick up that tension and follows blowing horn.
By all these examples, I understood that we only pick the stress, anxiety, and fact everything which is displayed as pain in the body and move to various parts when we give attention to the first affected part. I never get sick or pain when I am in a bubbly joyful mood with more positive energy, I can even say accident is the pain of maximum accumulation of negative energy. This is felt by many while returning from ashram who cannot vibe well with ashram. {Mother has even explained this in Agenda}
Not only this, the egoistic attitudes like: I have the answer, if only they would listen to me, they would be happy etc on our beloved and affectionate ones, why this world is like this and doing something based on that, only to get negative airs etc also affects. For example, if we voluntarily go to help others and if they resent in subtle, we can see lump arising in our skin.
To be a do-gooder is to carry the fear and pain of failure. When we are attached to hoping that our advice will work for others, we endure countless losses and failures – our failure to make the changes we want to see. By trying to change others, we are fighting with truth. And therefore, we will always be ineffective. Because no one can change anyone or any situation. Can anyone truly change without our own mind’s permission and making the change happen? If we are honest, we can feel our resentment and bitterness at others not taking our suggestions, or not accepting our help only to bring pain in various forms.
Sri Karmayogi says pain is the joy of breaking out of ego. Pain is the ignorance of emotions and sensation of others. He also says that subtle damages caused by one are neither felt by the one who gives nor the one who suffers with pain. So, in short, all forms of pains are picked by us by our attitudes. A disease or pain is the result of deterioration of holistic health expressing in one part or organ.
